Lord, beer me strength

Hey 2011, you've been pretty good to me so far. Let's keep that up.

Last year was supposed to be my year. In fact, I emphatically told my sisters that they couldn't do anything special because it was my year. It was a good year, but I'm not sure it was mine. I'm not quite sure I even get a year, or maybe every year is my year. It doesn't really matter, I guess.

As I was driving back home, or at least back to the place where I keep all of my things, I couldn't help but feel the limbo I live in. I'm so much more uncertain than I used to be about what comes next. For now, at least for the next few months, I'm okay not knowing. There's a certain charm and comfort in not knowing.

But I do know some things... like my new years resolution. I don't really like to do measurable things. Instead I kind of choose self-betterment things. In the past it was to love more, or to be more patient, or to get what I need. This year I'm going to try harder. I don't try hard enough. I mean... I do a good job at the things I do... but I could do much better. I could try much harder. And I'm going to.

Finally, just as a reminder to myself, I have the most bang-up set of friends that has probably ever existed. I've been blessed in ways that no one deserves, received only through the grace of God.

See ya, 2010, it's been real.