Come on Feel the Noise...

I'm loving life right now. I just came to the shocking and intense realization that I am a college senior, who has had the entire four year, living on campus, going to school experience. I don't have any complaints. I have a room that I treat as a lair - the floor is littered with clothes, newspapers, trash, poetry, books, shoes, highlighters - a useless guitar reclines on my futon - I keep the room at 68 degrees so I have to use a blanket. No one cares if I use part of my bed as a desk and the other as a nest. I am allowed to wear three different socks in one day. And I have the incredible gift of being able to do what I want with my days. And sometimes I want to go to class. And sometimes I want to walk through neighborhoods that I don't know. And sometimes I look for people who will challenge my boundaries. The most excited I have been in weeks came Tuesday when I was able to cook a pre-made box of noodles for my boss. I don't like to get my new shoes wet. I don't like to eat alone in the dining hall... so I don't. I don't like to use paragraphs. I have a mysterious bruise on my left shoulder. I think South Dakota is fascinating. I love to dance like I have rhythm... but I don't. Every day I fight with myself about the chivalry and tradition of relationships between men and women and resist the urge to ask every stranger I see on the street to coffee, but not everyone likes coffee... and I forget that. I'm allowed to sit in class for three hours with my feet up on a chair and throw around ideas about Western Nebraska, and that kind of sounds lame - but I adore Nebraska. I'm a better student this semester all ready than I have been in three years of college. Sometimes I find people's facebook statuses condecending. I don't give one hoot about Bo Pelini or Nebraska football. I have a pretty healthy appreciation of sports. Sometimes I'm a littler too critical. I have a lot of really incredible friends. I appreciate a man who smells okay. I could spend most of my time outdoors. Life is really good right now.